The future

I’ve been asked about where I’m going to go after the Games end. I’ve been asked what I’m planning to do.

I have no idea. Nolly mentioned that I go through life making not enough plans. That’s true. If I were a gambler, I’m the sort who would stake everything on my first bet. I always tend to lose though I realise. Fine, gambling is not a great analogy. Let me put it in tennis terms. I’ll take the high risk shots for an outright winner. I never was one to potter around the court. I have had my difficulties coming to terms with the possibility that what I’ve dreamed of being, of doing will not translate to reality but I’ve also seen how blessed I really am. I think I was expected to take this rejection with more devastation but before the results came to light, I prayed about being able to accept whatever it is God decided. I think I took this well, better than I’d ever imagine, with God’s grace of course.Very thankful for a job where I’m pushed to my limit and with loads of responsibility piled on me, I like the challenge.

So what’s the answer to where I’m going to go, what I’m going to do. I have no clue. I only know it will involve a lot of prayer, a lot of being silent and listening to what God will tell me, but first, I need to be disciplined enough to rest and keep awake enough to listen….

The past few weeks at church and at bible study have been timely reminders of how the only thing that is a constant in life is God. So I will, be anxious for nothing but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving, let my requests be made known to God.